More Food for Thought

After talking to Tiffani Phabsomphou today, it got me thinking.
She fed me some information that completely made sense.
On the dot, a majority of the time.

Young, deep thinker, but feels that the 'options' can lead to something else, which isn't a good thing. And to add, still has a 'pest' on the side still lingering on.

Tiffani says it's a phase 'they' all go through.

The fact that she is young, shows that she still has plenty of time for growth and time to experiment, plus being a deep thinker doesn't automatically set them as mature, more of an image set. Tiffani's had a good idea on 'her' since she's read her blog and described it pretty well point for point.

The options shows that if I am second in terms of the five that she says she's interested in, would then lead to think that one is immovable in terms of relations. The other four on the other hand would become experiments to see how she would develop a feel for them. To summarize: Either be number one, or nothing.

Something happens between them, he wants her back, she doesn't, but the moment he stops wanting her back, she wants him back considering he was her first. I honestly wouldn't doubt that at all, since she is already set on a pedestal.

Rabble, rabble, rabble, I know this doesn't really make sense, it's just a kick of knowledge I received. It just made sense in my head rather than being typed.

Let's hope Monday doesn't turn out the way Tiffani had described. Let's hope not...

And if it does, within the next few days, I'll prepare for the worst.

Thanks again Tiffani.

So Far Gone...

I'm beginning to detest wearing my heart on my sleeves in regards to blogging.
But this is the best way I know to cope. To vent.
This was something blog worthy in my opinion...
It needed a breath of fresh air...
Especially since I haven't felt this way in a very, very long time...

I've finally met someone who has the same (atleast most of it) ideals in many different subjects:
Relationships, ethics, humor, so on.
And to appreciate it.
But it finally hits me...
More than usual...
I don't want to have to admit it, but...

I've become completely vulnerable.

I have thrown myself defenseless ready for a hit, feeling it would be worth the impact.
The impact though, is not physical. It is more mental and emotional.
As much as I try to appreciate it, it always comes undone.
I try to keep it in the 'lesson learned' category, and that 'patience will have it's way' soon enough.
But I'm tired of waiting.
My patience has been running dry nigh too long.
I'm tired of the endless need for the feeling of being and being with.
Tired of endless pervading thoughts that continue to ravage my brain of 'possibilities'.

Is it because I've been infatuated that deeply?
Is it because I haven't felt this way in so long?
Is it because I have such a strong feeling about this one person?
Or perhaps it's all 3...?

The impact so far doesn't seem well off anymore...

I think I've set myself once again...
In the friend zone.

Time and time again, it always comes back to this song.
Thank you Adrian Hood for an amazing piece of art.



Wishful thinking, huh...

Another Late Update

Yes, it's been about a month since I've last updated, but I'm sure you'd all forgive me for this better-late-than-never post. As some of you have known, I've turned 21 a couple weeks ago. Sadly, nothing has changed from it: I don't drink, smoke, roll, etc. The only thing that has changed though, is quite possibly my mentality and of course, getting older.

I believed that my former thought of not needing anyone and just having friends alone would be fine, but maybe, just maybe, I'm just getting weaker. Probably with the fact that, I don't know, it would be... Nice? Those damn thought provoking songs never fail when it comes down to making me stuck in this state of mind. I guess it's just something that will fade in time. Maybe it's just that I need something new...

Anyways, here's one song that never gets old with me, especially when I'm just cruising down Harbor (From Costa Mesa to Rowland Heights, DAMN!).

Vision Eyes by Uyama Hiroto ft. Golden Boy


Oh yeah, thanks everyone once again who showed up and made it a memorable night! I may have had a certain amount of drinks, but I avoided alot to survive haha. There will be another one soon enough, I just don't know when though. I'll probably update this post with pictures someday. That's just a probability, don't forget lol

Very Late Update

Hi all. I know it's been quite some time since I've last updated this blog, due to lack of interest or just plain procrastination. Regardless of all that, I decided to make a post. Alot has come and gone since my last post, but I'm still here, legs, arms and all.

With that said, this is what I've become:

* I no longer work at Yogurtland due to some unfortunate circumstances but now am working at Finish Line at The Block as a Sales Associate. The hours/wage isn't as great as my previous job, but I'm currently looking into other places for work.

* I have severed slight ties towards some people whom I feel deserve it. My judgment is based on what they say/do, so when someone gives that push, I push back enabling a very firm standpoint unless something is done by either person(s).

* My sleeping habits have been getting worse as the months proceeded. From sleeping at 2 a.m. to sleeping at 6 or 8 a.m. I end up waking up at 1 p.m. or even 6 p.m.! Talk about insomnia...

* I'm feeling the urge to get myself back into shape and back into breakdancing. After a good 2 year hiatus, 25 pounds does take its toll, and now is the time to take advantage of it.

* The big two-one is coming ever so soon, and I cannot avoid the inevitable. I've already been exposed to what the consequences of alcohol consumption are, and sadly I myself am not prepared. The last time I had drank was for Duy's birthday in 2008, and it was only a ladle (yes, a ladle) full of Hennessy VSOP I believe. Being sober and uninterested in alcohol for the past 2 years will bring a promising fail, yet I doubt I'll even be able to remember it.

Hmm, that's a mouthful there. I didn't think I was going to even go through with this (procrastination once again haha).

Right now though I'm currently addicted to this song by Rainie Yang called 'Rainie Love' or '雨爱'.



As of late, I've been watching a Taiwanese drama called 'Hi My Sweetheart' which this song is the drama's ending theme.

This song puts me in the mind state of contemplation during those long drives alone. My mind just brings up random topics as I stare into the never ending highway, melancholy feelings, satisfaction, and so on. This song is personally one of my favorites, which I feel will never get old. This thinking process as well feels like my old self, the one who daydreams or just drifts away into spontaneous thoughts of anything that comes to mind. I missed it. Atleast this is one thing that hasn't changed through time.

I hope to continue updating on a regular basis, even though I need to make it a habit. Chester once told me that 'It takes 21 days to make it a habit.' Let's try to achieve that then. Until next time.

It's Been Awhile

Yeah, it's been quite some time since I've last made a post on blogspot. I guess there were some things I felt that I shouldn't post, and/or didn't care for. Well, this post is simply to state that this blogspot isn't dead. I will input into this page with what has happened these past couple months during my spare time, 'till then, thanks for sticking around.

San Francisco 03/06/09 - 03/08/09

San Francisco... What a trip that was.

--- Will upload pictures later, but for now, enjoy the video!

Valentine's Day

Hope she likes it.