So Far Gone...

I'm beginning to detest wearing my heart on my sleeves in regards to blogging.
But this is the best way I know to cope. To vent.
This was something blog worthy in my opinion...
It needed a breath of fresh air...
Especially since I haven't felt this way in a very, very long time...

I've finally met someone who has the same (atleast most of it) ideals in many different subjects:
Relationships, ethics, humor, so on.
And to appreciate it.
But it finally hits me...
More than usual...
I don't want to have to admit it, but...

I've become completely vulnerable.

I have thrown myself defenseless ready for a hit, feeling it would be worth the impact.
The impact though, is not physical. It is more mental and emotional.
As much as I try to appreciate it, it always comes undone.
I try to keep it in the 'lesson learned' category, and that 'patience will have it's way' soon enough.
But I'm tired of waiting.
My patience has been running dry nigh too long.
I'm tired of the endless need for the feeling of being and being with.
Tired of endless pervading thoughts that continue to ravage my brain of 'possibilities'.

Is it because I've been infatuated that deeply?
Is it because I haven't felt this way in so long?
Is it because I have such a strong feeling about this one person?
Or perhaps it's all 3...?

The impact so far doesn't seem well off anymore...

I think I've set myself once again...
In the friend zone.

Time and time again, it always comes back to this song.
Thank you Adrian Hood for an amazing piece of art.



Wishful thinking, huh...